How I got in contact with deeksha and the oneness university
I started taking deeksha here in Sweden around the year 2001. My memory is not very good with years and dates so it may not be correct, but I remember attending the very first Satsang in Sweden that was about the Oneness University (but back then this name didn’t exist yet) and it was held by a guy named Palle Nielsen (I think) and this was before they started initiating people to give deeksha. But this guy had gotten some kind of gift from Bhagavan to give healing by putting the hands on top of the head. The person could then receive either healing of the body, mind or get some kind of temporary altered state of consciousness that would be healing in itself, just having had the experience.
For example if someone was always stressed, this person might get the experience what it was like to be totally free of all stress and the memory of this experience may change this persons view on some part of life or him/herself.
Soon people started going to This man named Bhagavan and his wife Amma in India. The place was called Golden City. Annette Carlström was one of the first or the first (not sure) to be initiated in giving deeksha and I went to as many “Satsangs” with her as possible. The following years I literally received hundreds of deeksha’s (usually you got many deekshas per Satsang). It was very intense and I experienced everything from incredible bliss to horrible suffering.
One morning I woke up and my brain started planning for a trip to The Oneness University to go the 21 day program they had then. It was like it was already decided for me. It’s very hard to explain but there was almost nothing I could do about it. Before I knew it I had booked the flight and all that.
I am a young man (28 when writing this) so at that time I was 25 and had never even traveled by airplane, was pretty insecure and shy, and here I was planning a solo trip to India. It was automatic.
Anyway, I got in contact with some more people going there and I ended up going together with a woman named Eva who live in a town near mine.
Now I’ll skip ahead to the second day of the Diary (The first is just about the trip itself.. not that interesting to read really).
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05 Aug 2006, 21:20
(This is the morning after arriving to the hotel in India (Chennai), the morning that we got picked up by a bus that took us to the Oneness University)
Slept pretty good. Didn’t eat the hotel breakfast because I wanted to sleep a bit longer. I had some fruit, bread and other stuff with me instead. Quite many people here also going to the same place. The bus ride took a few hours and in that time I saw everything from the “rich” neighborhoods to the very poor people living in small shacks. Eva told me a story from when she lived at a monastery in Italy (named Fransiko-something). She and her friend both saw a statue of Jesus move.
The bus arrived to GC (golden city) and when we drove through the gates to this place I was struck by incredible gratefulness. About a year before that I had a dream in which I was standing in line to enter a gate and Bhagavan and Amma stood at each side of this gate. I couldn’t see through the gate.. I could just see light shining from it.
We got out of the bus and where welcomed by a couple of Dasa’s (monks). One of them put his hand on my shoulder, looked my deep into the eyes and said ‘welcome!’. That must have been one of the warmest welcomes I ever had.
It’s impossible to not get affected by the presence of these monks.
They showed us our room (13 beds) and we made ourselves at home and then it was time for lunch. Have to say that the Mauna (silence – non speaking rule) is poorly respected.
If you pay 50.000 SEK to attend this process, the least you can do is follow the rules right?
Walking back form the diner I where struck by this gratefulness again: “I’m walking with my feat touching the ground in Golden City! Marcus from Helsingborg in GC”.
It’s very very hot here, but they have extremely good air conditioning in the rooms etc.
I’m looking forward to tomorrow, I’m very excited. Every now and then I can feel the stillness in this place… it must be the “high energies” they are talking about that you are supposed to feel here.
Time to sleep!
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06 Aug 21:36
Gentle start of this day. We didn’t gather until 10:00 in the meditation hall. They went though some routines, simple rules etc and we did a short meditation. Lunch at 13:00 and then a new gathering at 17:00. It was raining cats and dogs and when we all got to the meditation hall the guides wasn’t there yet so we all had to wait in the pouring rain. (apparently you wait A LOT in India, come to think about it we had to wait 1½ hour for the lunch too… India! 
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When we entered the meditation hall they had a welcoming ceremony for us. They made a small mark at our third eye with something looking like moist soil and they sprinkled some blessed water on us, a hug and heartfelt “Namaste!”. We sat down and presented ourselves briefly , the mic when from person to person.
Later the Dasa spoke about different things like that we where all here for our own special reasons. Nothing was a coincidence and that we had probably all been searching for many many years or even lifetimes. Now we needed a final push, help from the divine to brake through the “veil” that was between us and what we where seeking.
He said the deeksha is this push, the connection to the divine and that we will each be initiated to give deeksha to others. We did some “Aarthi” (welcoming/inviting the divine, whatever the divine was for each of us) and received a short deeksha. No hands on, just by intent.
I felt the kundalini going up and was affected quickly and also felt a glimpse of stillness and love in my chest. But that was all, it was time to eat.
Tomorrow we meat at 07:30 at the same place. I just took a shower. It felt really good in this heat. Only one temperature on the water, but it was perfect. I’m going to get some sleep now, if I can. A big snoring American sleeps in this room too… but I’m sure It’ll be fine.
Some of my thoughts go to those at home and I hope they are not worried.
I like it here! And I enjoy the Mauna. GOOD NIGHT!! 
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07 Aug 21:20
Today we received our first “hands on” deeksha. It was done in the same way as at home and it felt good… pretty much like usual. Energies went through the body and I felt like laughing.
By the way, we got to see Ananda Giri. He spoke with (to) us. I like him. He is very honest.
Someone asked him why she never felt anything during deeksha and why some specific changes etc occurred in her that she where striving for. Ananda Giri became silent.. For a long time. Then he said “I don’t know”.
The thoughts really get amplified… and I feel that I feel bothered by people a lot. I often think to myself that people are so stupid, like “typical American” etc. But what does that matter? Nothing happens just because I think so. Even if someone would be stupid for real, they can’t help it. It’s circumstances, upbringing, traumas etc that made it that way.
Yesterday I realized how long I’m going to be here. It still doesn’t feel like things have “really started” yet. But it has. This only shows my own frustration that things must happen, but this feeling too is a part of me that I should see.
We have our first sick person… the poor guy has diarrhea. He is laying in bed, very weak. I pray for him. I didn’t “come” here. I was brought here. Someone must have heard my prayers and brought this to me (or me to this). Things happen here, maybe not in the way you would want, but in the way that teaches you the most and takes you to where/what you need. I’m starting to feel very at home. You get so taken care of.
The thunder Is lighting up the sky tonight. We gather 07:30 tomorrow in the meditation hall.
Namaste & good night!
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To be continued very soon…